When I’m comfortable with me, I’m comfortable with you
I was looking at this old photo of my cat this morning and it brought to mind something I read recently about how it is only once we can accept ourselves for who and what we are, that we really start to appreciate all that is around us and to ‘be’ in the moment.
For someone who had always had a packed agenda each day, filled with things to go, places to be, people to talk to and 101 unfinished tasks, I never understood this concept. My career was hectic, my social life was planned months in advance, I was renovating and redecorating houses, running, going to the gym, seeing family…. As far as I was concerned I was I was ‘being’. I was being busy, being happy, being friendly, being a good daughter, being a friend, being a partner, being fulfilled… or was I?
It was only as I started to spend more time on my yoga mat and learnt to listen to my body more; to appreciate the calm that comes with practicing yoga, that I started to question whether I was really comfortable with who I was. The answer was that I wasn’t truly happy with who I am and that was what had lead to me trying to fill my days completely so that I didn’t have to address this …. In many ways I was running away.
However, the more time that I spent focusing on my breathing as I learnt the different yoga asanas; the more calm I became both on and off the mat. I learnt what I can and can’t do; how my body works and I began to accept what I couldn’t do. I also started to actually like myself and as I did, the need to keep driving myself to be superwoman, and feeling like a failure when I couldn’t do everything, lessened.
I realised that peace comes from within and only truly comes when we know who we are and what we need; accepting our flaws along with all the positives about ourselves. To be truly comfortable with ourselves we have to accept our inner tigers and stare them down; learning as we do, the real strength inside us. Finally being able to enjoy time alone without needing to escape into some form of distraction is true peace. Once we have this, everything else seems so much easier and it’s possible to focus on what is important to us in life.
So, I don’t know about you, but I won’t be giving up my time on the mat for anything!